My mother always said that I should put my pictures with my poems. Just one more thing she was right about.
Yes, this is my “ABOUT” page.
(Or, as I prefer, “Why? Why me, why this blog, why now?”)
God has been too good, too kind, too strong for me for too long for me to be quiet about it any longer.
My desire for this blog is to show this in ways both large and small, and sometimes unexpected. I suppose it could be said that I plan on thanking God for the life he’s given me by starting to live it. Finally.
It is not my primary intent to assert that those who feel differently about God are wrong – only that God alone is always right, and I intend on sticking as close to him as possible.
This blog is my ongoing declaration before the Lord to the world that he alone is God, that no one has life at all apart from him who is Life, and that as such he can save from any circumstance – no matter how dire. In that case, why should I ever give up?
It is a declaration of my life as having come from him, and of my joy as only coming through knowing him – to the extent that I do.
As to “why now”?
The last two years of my life have been the worst ever. I saw my mother slowly sicken and decline through forces beyond her control or mine. It was not as simple as her age or mere human sickness, but was more insidious than that. Whichever way we turned for help, there was little to be found – only another door leading further and further down.
It was like we were living in the dream of a meshuggana – a person taken leave of their senses. Others, I know, have had far worse experiences. But I would not wish the last two years on any other person – no matter how I might hate them. And I do try not to do that.
At some point I will go into some detail about these events, but not yet.
In working on this “About”, one particular memory occurred to me. Years ago, my mother and I watched a program about Judaism hosted by Theodore Bikel. As a way of describing the purpose and mindset behind Jewish feasts and celebrations, he said something like, “Whenever a great calamity befell the Jewish people, and yet they survived, they said, ‘Our enemy tried to kill us – but failed. Let’s eat!’”
So, even though she did die, this blog is my statement both that “to live is Christ, to die is gain” and that Satan neither took her true life nor can he have my joy. As I said at her funeral, death does not have the last word.
Although she left this physical world, it was her belief and it is mine that by being absent from her body, she has returned to be present with God. There are no more restraints on her life. She is free – not only because she has shucked off her mortal body, but because she is in the manifest presence of God. The maker and giver of life.
To me, the name of the blog most closely reflects and sums up my above feelings.
It is a declaration to the only true enemy of humanity – Satan – to “rejoice not, o my enemy. For though I fall, I shall arise. Though I sit in darkness, the Lord shall be my light.”
Forget about getting God on your side, he’s already for you. Get on His side. Once you do, as long as you don’t give up, Satan can never beat you.